I really do miss him...

Ok... so I went out with a friend after Thanksgiving and saw someone I haven't seen in almost two years. It made me want to cry. He has been with me through so much, and what he wanted I couldn't (or wouldn't give him at the time). He is the epitome of what every woman wants (or should want). He is attractive, a great listener, attentive, funny, passionate, the person you call when you're having a bad day, when someone hurts your feelings, or just when you want to lay around and eat pizza and ice cream and watch good movies. He is the person that brightens your day when he walks through your door and makes your breathe easier when you feel like you're suffocating. At the time he was what I was what I wanted from another guy... or so I thought I wanted it from that other guy. In a sense, I don't think I was willing to take the next step because I didn't want to lose him as a friend. In the end I still ended up losing him. Seeing him made me realize how much I miss him as a person, and that I must apologize to him. I miss curling up next to him and talking. I miss playing scrabble with him. I miss eating pizza from Coletta's and laughing. I miss everything that we did and shared together. It also made me wonder what would have been if I had not been so caught and blinded by the other guy. Wow... I have a lot to apologize for... If you would excuse me, I have a call to make... Somebody please pray for me!