I loathe dialysis...

Today made me realize just how much I loathe dialysis. It was a pretty bad day... I think it's the worst day I have had at dialysis that does not pertain to getting ill. I got to the center on time, at about 4:45 in the morning as I do on most days. I am usually one of the first people there. Today was no different. I did all of the preparations, having blood pressures taken, temperature taken, and gave the nurse and the tech all of the information they needed to input into the machine. The tech stuck me and put me on the machine. Ten minutes later the machine completely shut down! I was pissed! Not only had the machine not been working properly for a few days, it had not been taken out of rotation and the techs who worked on the machine were not on call, and there were no more back-up machines to put into rotation. I had to wait for an hour and a half for someone from a sister center to come in and repair the machine! And then I had to wait thirty more minutes for the machine tech to repair the machine! It was two hours before I could get on a machine, and then the tech asked me if I wanted to run for two or two and a half hours... HELL NO! I want to run the entire three hours that my doctor prescribed! I could understand if I had been late, and then they could have cut my time, but I had been there since 4:45! I am not one to cut my time and get off the machine early and I was not going to start today! This is my life we're talking about and even though I despise dialysis, I know that is an evil that I must endure because it is, essentially, saving my life. Ah... i guess it's the lesser of two evils... To make things worse, I had a second doctor's appointment that I had to reschedule because the transportation company I ride with never dispatched a driver the first time I called. That pissed me off because they made it out to be my fault, as if I had not called! It's the first thing I do when I complete my treatment! Needless to say, I had to come home and take a nap cause I was ready to burn something down like Angela Bassett on "Waiting to Exhale!" I am pretty calm now, though you probably can't tell from the post! But everything's better now... I just have to learn to deal with certain situations better! Ah...